Flavour’s baby mama, Anna Banner has shared an insight into some of the struggles/challenges she has so far faced in life, as she revealed that she was suicidal at some point.
The former beauty queen who recounted having a baby at 20 for Flavour, said she was depressed and was once suicidal at some point in her life.
Anna Banner disclosed that she lost her self confidence, was ashamed of her body and also ashamed of some of the decisions she made as an unmarried young lady.
The former beauty noted that for 6 years she has had bad birthday experiences, but added that this year will be a reminder of all she’s been able to pull through.
She wrote in a series of posts;
FOR ALMOST 6 YEARS NOW, I’VE HAD SAD BIRTHDAY EXPERIENCES… IT WAS PRETTY FRUSTRATING, BUT I ADVICED TO ALWAYS WEAR A “SMILE” TO COVER UP THE PAIN AND SADNESS
FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT SMILE WAS MY HASH TAG!
UT I HAD TO MAKE A PERSONAL DECISION TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY BY MYSELF! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD!
MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR IS A HUGE REMINDER OF HOW I’VE BEEN ABLE TO PULL THROUGH! I FELT LIKE I’VE BEEN CAGED FOR ALMOST 6YEARS OF MY LIFE!
HONESTLY, NO ONE SEES THE SILENT STRUGGLES AND PAIN WE ALL GO THROUGH! ALL WE GET ON SOCIAL MEDIA ARE “LIKES” AND “COMMENTS” FROM PEOPLE WHO LIKES YOU, ADMIRES YOU, OR EVEN HATES YOU!
AND YES! WE POST BEAUTIFUL PICTURES JUST TO FEEL GOOD SOMETIMES! WE POST FAMILY PERFECT PICTURES TOO! BUT WE STRUGGLE TO SLEEP AT NIGHT! #BEHINDTHESOCIALMEDIA
WE DON’T HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT! I WAS SUICIDAL AT SOME POINT IN MY LIFE! I NEVER KNEW WHAT DEPRESSION WAS UNTIL I EXPERIENCED IT! IT WASN’T PRETTY AT ALL! I WAS ASHAMED OF MY BODY, I WAS ASHAMED OF SOME DECISIONS I MADE, I LOST MY SELF CONFIDENCE, I LITERALLY LOST MYSELF! I SCREAMED SILENTLY FOR HELP BUT NO ONE BUT GOD COULD HEAR ME!
I HAD A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL AT 20 (UNMARRIED, YOUNG AND A SCHOOL DROP OUT) AND 5 YEARS LATER, I’M A GRADUATE! I THOUGHT ABOUT QUITTING SCHOOL SO MANY TIMES! TRUST ME. I DIDN’T CARE ANYMORE! IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE! MENTALLY, I WAS EXHAUSTED! AT SOME POINT MY DAUGHTER COULDN’T RECOGNIZE ME! SHE CALLED HER GRANDMA MUMMY INSTEAD! I WAS SHATTERED!
THESE ARE NOT EVEN HALF OF THE #SILENTSTRUGGLES
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BUT GUESS WHAT, I CAME OUT STRONGER AND WISER! YOU MIGHT BE GOING THROUGH WORSE, BUT I CAN CONFIDENTLY TELL YOU THAT YOU’LL BE FINE! JUST DON’T GIVE UP ! GOD IS WORKING SILENTLY FOR YOUR SAKE! JOY COMETH IN THE MORNING!